i saw the fucking ocean

last night
i saw the ocean
i could finally write to my mom
that i had seen the ocean
and i wrote:
mom, the ocean is alive
he devoured me
bit by bit
the ocean i saw is not so big as people report
it fits in one eye

i saw an immensity of blue
and peace
and also pain
in your eye
your left eye
and it was so committed to look at me as if
we could be together

you gave me the house key
it's almost midnight
i'm on the kitchen floor
and you're letting a lot of unknown people
swim
into the ocean